Sometimes I hate how much I need attention. I hate how needy I feel when I don't get that attention, how sad and lonely I get. But at the same time I can easily feel smothered. I hate my brain.

I hate myself.

Its a hard night but I am trying

I'm
Perfect
Pissed off
Beautiful
I'm god

I feel like I am about to explode.

Bah.

Today I am happy.

So this morning I had a nightmare. And its been upsetting me all day. I can't even write about it it. Just that something bad happened to me an I felt upset because I wouldn't blame them if they really did it to me but it also hurts and bleh.